More Than Enough Sunshine for Us All

Do you struggle with fear? I do. I struggle, the most often, with the fear of "not enough." Fear of not enough money, success, originality, it has many different forms. This leads me to negative feelings and dampers my personal enthusiasm to pursue my goals. I even find myself particularly challenged on congratulating others when they are doing well, especially in areas of similar interest. I find myself "worried" that I can't do what they have done because a) they have already done it b) there isn't enough to go around.

To counteract this negativity, I know I need to put my faith to the Universe, that it will deliver. That whatever I put out there, will come back to me. If I find joy in other people's successes, the more likely I will be to succeed. If I only feed on the feeling of scarcity, I will never have enough.

I continually work to open my heart, so that I may embrace what is around me. That I may find joy in being grateful for what I do have. To obtain this more positive outlook, is a practice. To put this practice into motion so to speak, I have created this mantra in correlation of doing my Sun Salutations. I find it beneficial not only in time of fear, but any time I need to connect with my more "authentic self".

Starting with hands at the heart center, in Namaste (the prayer gesture),
"I send love and light to those people/experiences that challenge me"

Inhaling arms up,
"I am grateful to the sun surrounds me"

Exhaling folding forward,
"There is more than enough sunshine for us all"

Inhaling half way up, flat back,
"I open my heart to the Universe, it always delivers what I need"

Exhaling folding forward,
"I am grateful for the sun that surrounds me"

Inhaling arms up,
"There is more than enough sunshine for us all"

Exhaling hands to heart center,
"I send light and love to those people/experiences that challenge me"

I will repeat the practice till, I can actually feel the love, the light, the gratefulness. I will know I have opened my heart when I can do the practices with a smile on my face.

So hard to let go. . .

Today was an amazingly hard day. I woke up okay, and the next thing I know, I have created this avalanche of unpleastness that I cannot let go of. I turn to the right, it is wrong. I turn to the left and it's not right either. I am consumed with myself and how I have been wronged, by everyone. I am misunderstood and insecure, unsure of everything. It's one of those days when I call my Mother and I still don't quite feel better. So, I corner a good friend and I cry and scream. These dramatic acts offer some form of release, but I still stood in the midst of the storm. I still continued to fester on the all the missed opportunities I had had because I was not present enough to be a part of them. I cannot even attempt to try and do something good for myself. Don't tell me to breathe, do not tell me to be the bigger person, I cannot let go. I cannot appreciate the snow, I am too busy trying to survive the weather.

Textures of the Present Moment

Where are you? Are you in the Now? Or are you lost in those fictional places in your mind? Are you regretting the past or worried about the future? Take a moment to pause and appreciate your surroundings. Find a little peace in your presence. Appreciate the textures, maybe it's the seat where you are sitting, the texture of whatever your fingertips are touching. Just notice. For me, today, I appreciate the smooth creamy texture of the foam of my cappuccino as it touches my lips. When I bring my awareness into the Now, the world around me becomes brighter. Each and every moment holds it's own beautiful textures. I am grateful for this moment, this moment is my life.